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I am so beyond irritated. I mean really irritated.
Being lonely is one thing, but being ignored or being the only one putting in real effort. Thats another. Im having a hard time. I'm divorcing in 3 days, I'm going to college full time, working part time, moving 2 and a half hours away, raising 3 children half of the time, and pretty much having to beg for attention. I mean for God Sake its OK to acknowledge that I exist on your own! I need to know that I matter to you without me having to pry. I don't think it should be so hard! I'm sick from stress and I don't feel i get a lot of help. not even offers to listen. I'm being called names and told that im this horrible person. Cant you see that I need you right now? This is your job. If it was you, I would be right there. making sure you knew without a doubt that things weren't always going to be this way. Relationships don't maintain themselves. They are work. Just because Im not sitting infront of you doesnt mean im not here. Alone. While you make it clear that games are more important.